Wish You Were Here...

Two years have passed
I’ll never forget the day
Mother rang to tell me
That you’d gone away


The hurt is the same
Like an open wound
There are days
I don’t utter a sound


Some days the pain is stronger 
It makes me sick and weak
I can’t stand this much longer
I just sit here and weep


I’ve shut my private door
And let no one in
Locking myself in a box
They try, but I won’t give in


You were like a rock
Strong, faithful and true
What worth has my life 
Now I don’t have you


I was your first born
Daddy’s little girl
I took my own path
But was still part of your world


I was not the best
Guilty of neglect
But you know daddy dearest
I had so much respect


I always loved you
My dad, my star
Now my pain is
To worship you from afar


I love you now
As I did back then
I just hope... one day
I will see you again


I am so proud of you 
Brave and strong to the end
Now when asked “how are you?”
There is no need to pretend


We all love and miss you so much, sleep well 
and take care of all who went before you


Forever in my heart x

We lost our dad two years ago on this day - 23rd of  December, 2008. Since then life has never been the same. We miss sharing our daily life stories that he always loved to hear. It would give him immense happiness whenever he heard his daughters laughed. It was so heart breaking seeing him sitting in that bed, completely helpless. I felt this poem really connect to me, especially about the "I was not the best", I may not have shown it sometimes, but I really loved him a lot. I wish I could have spent more time with him.  Its really hard right now, every day I look at the pictures, its like my mind wont let me believe he's gone..